Saturday, 1 January 2011

2010- The Things I am Thankful For

I've been doing some thinking since I posted this item  yesterday. Even though 2010 ended up being the worst year of my life, it wasn't all bad. So for the sake of balance, I want to add this entry.

I am so thankful for my husband. I always knew I picked a good one and living our experience has made me realize just how lucky I am to have him. Tragic events can either drive a couple apart or bond them forever. In our case, it's cemented the bond we already knew we had. He is my life, and even if we never have a living child,  my life will be complete because he's a part of it.

I am thankful that I finally got to be pregnant and carry a baby to term. I loved feeling my dear son wriggling and kicking inside me. I loved the way he kicked me every time I tried to sleep on my left side as if to say, "Roll over Mom, you're making me uncomfortable." I am thankful for the joy and love our baby boy brought into our lives. The joy and love we felt when he was growing inside me is like none I've ever experienced. I am thankful that we got to experience that, even though in the end we did not have a happy ending.

I wouldn't change being pregnant with my beloved son for anything,,, I'd just change the ending.

So there you go, even in a totally crappy year there are still some things to be thankful for.
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25 comments:

  1. Shah Wharton1 January 2011 at 12:55

    I'm your newest follower from weekend wander blog hop. Hope you will share the love at wordsinsync.blogspot.com

    Bereavement is devastating - I hope 2011 will bring you some peace. Shah. X

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  2. My New Normal1 January 2011 at 15:40

    Thank you. I hope 2011 is a good one for you as well.

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  3. Carol E Wyer1 January 2011 at 15:53

    What an emotional year for you and such a poignant post and I wholeheartedly wish you peace and much happiness in 2011. I have friends who lost both of their twins at term after desperately trying to conceive and recall the ordeal quite clearly. They now have a son... I truly hope that you too will enjoy a further miracle. I dropped by from the Weekend Wander and had to just write a little comment.
    I have added myself as your latest follower.
    Carol from www.facing50withhumour.blogspot.com you are more than welcome to drop by any time and maybe something thing will occasionally make you smile.

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  4. sarah1 January 2011 at 18:07

    My son hated when I slept on my left side as well.

    I too have felt - dare I say it - blessed - by having my husband next to my side for this horrible rollercoaster of a journey...I hate that our relationship was forged through such tragedy, yet I love him more than I ever thought possible...it's a confusing thing to have something so beautiful arising out of such tragedy.

    Hoping that 2011 brings us peace and many bits of joy.

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  5. Jen1 January 2011 at 18:41

    Big hugs. I remember the kicking etc myself and the trying to get to sleep. I hope this continues to make you smile, always :)

    My sister has been told her daughter will not survive after birth so she finds herself trying to make memories now, like enjoying the kicking etc, while she can.

    So very very heartbreaking for you and for her.

    Take care. Jen

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  6. Jessica1 January 2011 at 21:52

    I felt the same about my husband. I always knew he was good but never knew he was THAT good. I'm so glad you we both have great men. Loss can divide a couple but is sounds as if it has held you together that much more. I'm hoping for a much better 2011 for you.

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  7. Branson1 January 2011 at 22:11

    Just found your blog today. Praying you will find peace in 2011 :)

    Http://blmerrill.blogspot.com

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  8. Tess2 January 2011 at 04:24

    I am glad you can see the blessing that came with 2010, through all the heartache and total unfairness of it all. I hope that 2011 will bring more of the blessings and none of the despair... I toast to that.
    Much love to you

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  9. My New Normal2 January 2011 at 12:24

    Thanks everyone.

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  10. Tiffany2 January 2011 at 12:49

    I'm glad your husband is there for you & is your "rock", Good luck in this New year! I'm following you now. Http://www.thenilsensnest.blogspot.com

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  11. Retail Therapy Lounge2 January 2011 at 17:12

    Wow - great post to start the year.
    Found you on a blog hop and am your newest follower - Would love for you to check out my blog and follow back if you like it.

    Check out my "retail therapy" giveaways and enter a few, there are some great products to win.

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    Carol

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  12. Kim Wombles2 January 2011 at 17:28

    What a poignant post. ((()))

    I'm sorry for your loss and hopeful for you that this year will be a blessed year.

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  13. Joella2 January 2011 at 17:47

    I'm a new follower from a blog hop and just want to say how sorry I am for your loss. <3

    Good for you for focusing on the positive and remembering the joys of your pregnancy!

    http://www.fineandfair.blogspot.com

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  14. Clayton Thomas2 January 2011 at 17:59

    Newest follower- I am incredibly sorry for your loss. I'll keep you in my prayers.

    Clay
    http://tantrumstroublesandtreasures.blogspot.com

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  15. Anonymous2 January 2011 at 21:10

    I am in the same boat.. I wold not change his time alive for anything in the world- but to go back to the last few days of his life.. I would give more to do that than I can even say....

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  16. madforreading3 January 2011 at 01:49

    I am your newest follower from http://madforreading.blogspot.com. I am so touched by your story, which you tell so honestly. I wish you healing and happiness in the new year.
    Madeline

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  17. Sandra3 January 2011 at 06:19

    I'm sorry you had such a crappy year, but I admire your resolve to see the positives around you....yes, cheesy I know, but true nonetheless.

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  18. Anonymous28 January 2011 at 10:29

    Oh sweet girl. I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I am glad you and your husband are united in grief and love. I wish you peace. You are a beautiful mother xxx

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  19. Anonymous28 January 2011 at 10:37

    Just found your post on Maxabella's blog hop. I I had to follow as soon as I read your profile - just so I can symbolically stand with you as a woman. I just want to put my arms around you and say that sometimes life really sucks. There is great goodness in life and there is great pain. So sorry you have suffered such a painful, hope shattering thing xx

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  20. Jodie Ansted28 January 2011 at 11:35

    Hon, I'm just over from Maxabella Loves...

    What a gorgeous post, and a beautiful way you have chosen to look at this.

    I think a true test of a relationship is the loss of a child. My sister died at age 17 when I was nearly 7mths old, and my parents leaned on each other. They continue to lean on each other today (almost 40 years on).

    Wishing you a wonderful 2011. xx

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  21. Maxabella28 January 2011 at 11:52

    What a beautiful perspective you have. Your little fella had a purpose and that purpose seems to have been fulfilled. x

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  22. allison tait28 January 2011 at 12:43

    Here's hoping that 2011 is full of the good stuff!

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  23. Nikki @ Styling You28 January 2011 at 22:16

    I'm over here for the first time from Maxbella ... what heartfelt gratitude. I'm sorry for your pain and overwhelmed by your strength.

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  24. shan {missy melly}29 January 2011 at 02:11

    what a refreshing post... here's to a better year for you x

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  25. Unknown29 January 2011 at 03:23

    I'm popping in from Maxabella and I sincerely hope 2011 is a year of new beginnings, love and joy xx

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