Try, try your frozen embryo. : )
That's right, I've finally gotten dates for my frozen embryo transfer. I had really wanted a September transfer because it fits better with my schedule, but alas the clinic doesn't have any dates in September left. Talk about a busy place. So October the 13th it is.
I'm back on the birth control pill again which I will take from now until September 9th. Then I go off it. My baseline ultrasound and blood work are on September 14th and I begin my del estrogen injections on the 15th.
As I mentioned in a previous post, cycling in October is not ideal. We've got a trip home to the US planned for the end of the month which we cannot change. We've already pushed it back twice and if we don't go then, we won't be able to go based on the hubby's work travel schedule. So this means it will be time for my beta test when I'm back at home.
Not ideal, but that's the way it goes and I am going to make the best of it. I am trying to go into this cycle with a renewed sense of cautious optimism. I don't think I'm capable of not being at least a little bit hopeful. I could pretend I wasn't hopeful, but I'd be lying to all of you and to myself. As many times as I've tried and failed, there's always this little bit of me who thinks, "this could be the time it works."
So here I go. This could be the time it works!
Dealing with the loss of a child is never easy, but it's even more difficult when you are an expat living far from home. Life will never be "normal" again and so now the challenge is to find my new normal. I am now back in the USA and the proud parent of two daughters, born using two different egg donors. "Frostina" and "Olea" are the loves of my life and I feel so grateful for the amazing women who donated their eggs and made my family possible.
Cautious optimism is good. That's all you need for now. I'll be thinking of you and hoping for the very best. Good luck.
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I have my fingers, toes, arms, legs and eyes crossed for you that you hit the jackpot this time xxx
ReplyDeleteGood luck!
ReplyDeletemuch love and luck to you this cycle!!!
ReplyDeleteI know it may not be ideal but I'm keeping everything crossed for you!
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you have a good attitude about this! Good luck my blogger friend!
ReplyDeletewell don't overdo it there cookie!!! I know that sense of urgency but make sure you will be nice and rested. Maybe you can get a yoga teacher to travel with you?
ReplyDeleteI am crossing my fingers for you that this cycle works! Such a bummer to be delayed to October, but it sounds like you don't have a choice! I am praying for your little frostie:)
ReplyDeleteThis could SO be the time it works. Why not this time? I'm telling myself the same thing.
ReplyDeleteLife has a weird way of working out it may not be the best time for schedules, but the circle of life has its own agenda!
ReplyDeleteMaybe it will be good and distracting? Gah, I dunno. I HATED having to wait.
ReplyDeleteEveryone knows FET is the new fresh transfer.
If I could have a wish right now... it would be for you. For October 13th. For October 14, 15, and so on... Cautious optimism. I pray for that with you.
ReplyDeleteI think it's impossible not to hold out some hope - otherwise we wouldn't keep trying. Sometimes it feels like we shouldn't admit our hopes (to ourselves or to others), but I'm pleased to see that you're feeling at least a little bit optimistic. Sorry it's delayed a month later than you'd like, but I think being back home could be a great distraction from the 2ww! I'll keep all my bits crossed for you.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for joining the grateful Linky. Hope it works for you.
ReplyDeleteThanks for adding a link to maxabella's wall.
xo em
Hope it all works out, I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.
ReplyDeleteI wish from the bottom of my heart that this time it works.
ReplyDeleteGood Luck!
ReplyDeleteFingers crossed.
A holiday in the middle of an attempt might be just what you need to take your mind off the next try and keep those stress levels down!
ReplyDeleteAll the best
you need the hope, the optimism and the positive thoughts! with such an uncertain and challenging experience, it is the hope and optimism that keeps you going... fingers crossed :)
ReplyDeletegood luck. so sorry for your loss last year. It's never easy and they will never be forgotten xo
ReplyDeleteYou've got to keep hoping :) I got pregnant on a FET with two embryos that couldn't have looked less promising. Even my RE didn't have much more than a shrug for me when I asked him what the chances were, and he is usually brimming with positivity. I didn't feel any hope, but I got it anyway. I will be hopeful and optimistic for you. :)
ReplyDeleteGood luck! I'll be sending some good vibes your way :-)
ReplyDeleteSo excited I found your blog through ICLW! I'll be doing an FET this month with embryos fromf a donor egg cycle with a surrogate in India. Best of luck to you-- cheers to hoping it's OUR month! Looking forward to following your journey! Best, Bernadette
ReplyDeleteSo very exciting, but I can understand your caution and trepidation. It is hard to get to worked up until you know for sure the procedure will really result into a baby. You have my prayers for success. I tried really hard to get pregnant. The first pregnancy lasted till 5 months, then the baby died inside me. It made me very skittish about getting pregnant again. I was forever fearful I would lose the baby. Thankfully I ended up with a precious baby girl and boy. I pray that you will know such blessings. My heart, prayers, and thoughts go with you. The best wishes and prayers.
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http://gigglingtruckerswife.blogspot.com/
Hoping to be cycling withyou in october too! <3 I've got my hope flag waving high for you!
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