Wednesday, 6 April 2011

Blog Party

Ultimate Blog Party 2011 

The lovely ladies over at 5 Minutes for Mom are having a huge blog party and I have decided to join in the fun. If you want to join in as well, click on the button above for all the info. If you are new to my blog, welcome.

Here is a little bit of info about me and my blog.

I am an American expat living in London. My husband and I have lived here for over 5 years now and really enjoy it.

I am Mommy to an angel in heaven. My son was stillborn at 36 weeks in August of 2010. I started this blog to try and work through my grief and find my way back from the brink of despair. My goal is to figure out how to live my life without him. Things will never be the way they used to be. So I am looking to find my new normal.

Before our loss we struggled with infertility so this blow was especially hard. It felt like we almost made it to our new lives and then someone just pulled the rug out from under us.

We are now in the process of trying for another baby. This time, due to my age and some genetic issues we are going forward using an egg donor. The world of egg donation is completely new to me. So I have been writing a lot about this new journey.

This blog has been such a refuge for me. It's where I can share my feelings in a way that I am unable to do in real life. I don't hold anything back. Much of what I share here is raw, uncensored, and painful to read. Believe me, it's painful to write as well. This is not a bright, shiny, happy blog much of the time. But it's me, all of me. The good, the bad, and the ugly.

For this reason, I don't reveal myself here. Somehow I feel safer blogging anonymously.

If I haven't scared you off yet then I hope you spend some time getting to know more about me and my journey.


  1. I'm doing the blog party as well! Glad you are joining in! Hope today is a good one for you....

    hugs mama!

  2. Your way cute.
    I honestly never took a second to realize that you have never mentioned your name or anyone else for that matter....interesting.
    I think you show yourself an honest person but I do think too that your blog lately has been on a positive streak. Your doing great.

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  4. You definitely haven't scared us off! I am so sorry for your loss...but what a way to work through everything. I love the idea of blogging, journaling or anything else to work through the ups and downs of life. Good luck with everything from here on out!!!

  5. I am a Mommy of an angel as well. I lost my baby at 2 months in a car accident. Life is never the same. I am here to tell you Life does go on and you can heal. I look forward to reading and sharing more.

    Stopping by from UBP. Please come by and check out my blog about all things green living.

  6. Your story is so touching. I wish you all the luck in the world in TTC. I'll be following you from now on, thanks for taking part in UBP so I could find you.

  7. Hi from The Infertility Club. I've been down that road but was so lucky in that I never had to face the kind of loss you suffered. All I can say is "eye on the prize." It's what got me out of bed everyday for years...x

  8. I am a new follower from the Boost my Blog Friday hop.
    Please visit and follow me back.
    Have a great weekend. ;-)

  9. Prayers to your angel in heaven.

    I'm stopping by from the Ultimate Blog Party to say hello.
    Have a great day!