Sunday 17 June 2012

Frostina's Homecoming

Wow what a week! It still seems surreal. I have an actual living baby in my home. She cries, and poops, and keeps me awake at night. She's very good at that bit by the way. It's wonderful and overwhelming at the same time.

My Mother is over from the US to help out, without her I'm not sure what we would do. She did not subscribe to my "don't buy anything until the baby is born" philosophy. As a result, I was greeted home with a sea of pink. There were tons of cute clothes and a quilt she made herself.

I was overwhelmed with emotion when I entered the house. When I left for the hospital there was barely any sign that a baby was on it's way. When I returned with Frostina in my arms, my house was overflowing with baby gear. So I responded the way any new Mom would, with floods of tears. Overwhelmed by my hormones and feeling of relief for Frostina's safe arrival I surrendered to them and let the tears flow freely.

As I sat on my couch crying I had a flashback to August 2010. I had sat on that very same couch back then crying a million tears. Mourning my loss with empty arms and a broken heart. From the outside it looked the same, but it couldn't be more different. This time I was crying tears of joy. My heart and my house was full. Filled of love and joy, but more importantly filled with a living baby and lots of baby stuff.

Frostina sleeping in her new bed in her new home.

33 comments:

  1. I'm so very pleased for you. Welcome home Frostina. x

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  2. That last paragraph says it all. That's just how it was for me too. I'm so incredibly happy for you. So many rainbow babies of late and so many more soon to arrive.
    xo

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  3. Oh I'm so glad your mum didn't listen to you!!!

    So happy for you!

    Maria
    xxxxx

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  4. So thrilled for you, soak it in my friend! Glad your Mom is there to help & that she knew just what you needed!

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  5. Yay! My mom was such a help! I look at my baby and think - wow - what a miracle.

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  6. I am so thrilled for you!! I'm glad your miracle baby is safe at home in your arms.

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  7. So happy for you and your sweet baby girl.

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  8. I'm sure this new reality felt like such a dream.. a sweet dream. I'm glad you get to live this one out. hugs mama, so happy for you-
    Felicia

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  9. It's a whirlwind of emotions, indeed. I think we were on an enormous high for at least a week after. We also had tons of NICU adrenaline in our blood, so that might have added to it all... but regardless, bringing home a baby after loss is something wild. I remember wallowing in those tears on the same couch as well. And when we brought B in the door, we laid him on the couch. It was emotional.

    Congrats, congrats, congrats. So happy sweet baby girl is with you.

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  10. A beautiful welcome home for the newest member of your family. Wishing you lots of love on this father's day!

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  11. There is so much fantastic in this post. I am so overfilled with joy for you. Also with hope for me. Thank you for sharing and for inadvertently giving me a hand up on this very difficult day for me.

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  12. I am so very happy for you, your family, and your precious Frostina! You've waited so long for this joy... Soak it up!

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  13. Welcome home, Frostina! <3

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  14. Congratulations to you and your family!!

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  15. Welcome home Little One! So extremely happy for you!!

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  16. I'm so glad that the tears were tears of joy this time. Thanks for sharing this with us.

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  17. Welcome home sweet baby! I love that you shared a little peek of her with us.

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  18. Your Mom rocks. Gathering all that stuff in secret and just appearing with it. That totally tears me up.

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  19. what a wonderful post, comparing the two weeping moments. I love that you had such a momentous homecoming with your baby girl. Sounded beautiful.

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  20. Welcome home little one :)

    So happy for your family

    xx

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  21. Oh SO wonderful! I am so incredibly happy for you.

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  22. Congratulations to all of you, and a glorious welcome to your beautiful baby girl. So much love and excitement out to you all.

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  23. Such a joyous post! Simply joyous! I hope to revel in that same moment one day too!

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  24. I'm so happy for you! Yes, the homecoming was so very emotional for me with B, too. Something about actually bringing a baby home, eh? So glad that things ended joyously this time. xx

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  25. I know exactly what you mean!!!!! She is BEAUTIFUL!! xo

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  26. What an awesome mom! That's a great homecoming :)

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  27. I am so, so happy for you. And moms are amazing, aren't they?

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  28. Thrilled to see you happy, it's in every word of this post.

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  29. Holy smokes! I haven't tuned in for a while and I was so overjoyed to check in today and learn everything has gone well. I hope having your little one at home and kicking with you is everything you (and your hubby) wanted and more. Congratulations!

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  30. So happy she's home- it's a great feeling! Enjoy!

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