Saturday, 16 July 2011

Cycling On: Hormones-a-Raging

11 injections down, 7 injections to go!!! Well it's really more than 7, but my current schedule only goes until transfer day. Transfer day! Wow, I can't believe I'm over halfway there!!

It seemed like such an abstract concept, but now it's two weeks away and no longer abstract. It's quickly becoming a reality.

I've got another scan next week to make sure all is going as it should. So remind me to shave my legs for my appointment with the "internal" ultrasound machine. I've seen others give it cute little nick names like Mr. Wandy or dildo cam. What do you call it?? I'd love to know. Post your nick name in the comments and if I like one then I'll start using it. Otherwise I'll just be boring and refer to it by it's medical name.

I am definitely starting to feel the effects of the hormones. I am moody and quick to anger and/or tears,,,, or both if the mood strikes me. The hubby will ask me something simple and I almost bite his head off.

He's been doing a good job at trying to find the humor in it all. He's been making all sorts of jokes about me and my hormones,,,, but not when I'm actually in mood of course,,, he's not that stupid. Mostly they make me laugh, and at times like these it's important to be able to laugh, especially at myself when I'm acting crazy.

I've been trying very hard to maintain awareness of when I'm being a moody bitch and bite my tongue. It's not been easy, but I'm trying really hard. I am trying really hard not to take it out on the hubby. After all, it's not his fault that the hormones are making me feel this way.
  • It's not his fault that he's the closest one to me when my mood swings. 
  • It's not his fault that it's not socially acceptable to smack total strangers when they stop right in front of me. 
  • It's not his fault that any little thing can make me want to cry. 
  • It's not his fault that I can't find my keys.
  • It's not his fault that I burnt the toast.
  • It's not his fault that I've just got all light headed.
  • It's not his fault that I'm having a hot flash.
  • It's not his fault that everyone else in the room is an idiot.
  • It's not his fault that people let their kids run all over the grocery store like wild animals and one of them just ran over my foot with their shopping trolley.
  • It's not his fault.
So I'm doing my best not to take it out on him. Sometimes with more success than others.

13 comments:

  1. I was an absolute boar to my husband when I was on fertility treatments. Just horrible!

    You crack me up with the Mr. Wandy/dildo cam comment - I never had a name for it.

    I just stumbled on your blog - wish you the best with your egg donation and crossing fingers for success on this journey.

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  2. Hi, I found you on Mummys little monkeys blog hop. I have never had fertility treatment but if its any worse than pmt then I think I would have to be locked up! So sorry to hear about your loss. Life can be so unfair sometimes, my fingers are crossed for you that everything works out this time xx

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  3. I usually call it the dildocam :) Right now I am suffering the Lup.ron headaches. OMG, the headaches! I forgot how it sends me to my bed w the covers over my head. My transfer is on August 2, so I'm right behind you.

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  4. I call the transvaginal ultrasound probe thingy Wandy, lol! Wandy & I have become good friends during this pregnancy, but I am hoping the last time we "hung out" was the last since we ever will since my next ultrasound will be at 13 weeks & we shouldn't need the good ole Wandy then. ;)

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  5. Ohhhhh, hormones! Is there anything more frustrating to feel an emotion, KNOW it's exaggerated because of hormones, yet still feel it anyway? I'm pretty sure there isn't!

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  6. May I print your list of "not his fault"s and hang it on my fridge? I really need to remind myself of those things regularly.

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  7. Haha! You and I are the same. I wanted to ask my husband who the TRUCK taught you how to load a dish washer???? CLEARLY you FAILED in that class! Yeah, hormone are brutal. Keep your sense of humor and tell him he is lucky not to get his ass kicked. Haha? Yeah, prob only to those on our side of the needle.

    Vag cam.

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  8. Mr. Pink, not that it's actually pink. But because for years I had a dildo/vibrator named Mr. Pink and every time I get an U/S I think of him and the good ol' days (not that I need to tell a complete stranger this but I've since graduated to pure vibrators).

    Best of luck with your donor egg cycle! I did my (donor egg) transfer on June 9th and I'm now 8 weeks prego with twins!

    Are you gonna go on PIO? If so, good luck with those. I think that's when I got my grumpiest. Raging hormones and a bruised/sore butt!

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  9. Oh, good for you. This made me smile. Glad to hear you can find some humor in the nightmare of hormones.

    Thinking of you!

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  11. Aw, this must be rough on you guys! Hopefully everything works out! Good to hear your hubby has a sense of humor about your hormones at least!

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  12. I hear you with the hormones and the moodiness...so dealing with that myself right now. Trying hard not to take it out on my husband, as well.
    Hang in there!

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