Saturday, 7 May 2011

Denial,,,, Not Just a River in Egypt

I am in denial and I'm proud of it.

American Mother's Day is tomorrow and I'm trying my best not to think about it. As an expat living in London I've already had to endure the UK Mother's Day. How cruel is it that the first year after my son dies I have to go through not one, but two days honoring mothers??

So my strategy is to pretend it's not happening. I plan to stay off facebook for the weekend so I won't see all the happy posts from all my friends. I put up one of the lovely flowers from Carly's site on my facebook page last week and that's all I'm going to do.

It is nice that at least I won't have to suffer through the stores being full of Mother's day stuff this time, but still,,,,,,, it's just too much for me.

So other than the obligatory phone call to my Mom, I'm not going to deny it's another Mother's day without my precious baby boy.

Denial...... let's see how well that plan goes.


  1. I think that sounds like a fine strategy. Wishing you a happy just-another-Sunday, and lots of hugs from someone you love xx

  2. I love the title of your post! I am so with you....sometimes denial really does help.

    I am praying for you that this weekend is easy on you. So unfair that you have to deal with 2 Mother's Days. I try to remind myself when I get sad about Mother's Day that Aiden made me a mom and that's something worth being happy about. NOW that doesn't always work but hey at least I'm trying right?

    Sending lots of love and peace your way.....


  3. I have two children.... but after I lost Thea a month ago.... Mother's day will never be the same again.

    I'll have one less kiss. One less hug.

    Sending you a great big hug.


  4. thinking of you over this not so happy of a Mothers Day weekend!

  5. I loved the title. Funny. You have such a brightness about you and I appreciate that you can add some humor in your blog buts kinda serious too. Hoping time is gentle to you.

  6. Already called my mom. Can't manage to do that tomorrow.

  7. Love denial!!! It has gotten me through three mother's days now. I send my gifts and cards a week early and then hibernate that day...away from the all the B.S. Best of luck tomorrow.

  8. Mothers day is such a nightmare of a day... Carly's International BLM Day felt so much more peaceful than today. Love to you always xoxo

  9. I can't even imagine! I'm floored, and so incredibly SORRY! You must be a truly amazing woman!

    I'm newly following via the FTLOB hop, and I can't wait (really, I can't) to read more!

    PS - I love London! I lived there for six months when I was 20!

    Baby Talk without the Babble

  10. Denial is a very underrated form of coping. I'm all for it. How else could we go on most days?

    Thanks again for all your support. You are right, we don't always have to be positive. I get down on myself for being negative sometimes when all I hear is my husband and friends telling me "to think positive"- as if it will change the outcome.

    Sometimes it's just not possible. I'm hanging in there though- glad to see you are too.

    Sending hugs to another mother who has lost too.


  11. Sometimes denial really is the best way of dealing with things. I hope after this weekend is passed you can feel a little better. Thinking of you.

  12. I'm doing the denial/ignore thing today too. I just hit the road. Drove 3 hours to a beautiful state park and pretended that I hadn't first stopped by the cemetery. Denial rocks!

  13. Came by thru the blog hop and am so sorry this is a bad day, well, yesterday was, by now here in America. I hope time helps you. When I lost both parents it was the other way around. I dreaded those days for different reasons but I try to get thru by telling myself that no pain or harm can come to them anymore. I am a new follower thru GFC and Facebook. I would love a follow back on those, just when you get a chance, no big rush. I would love to hear more about your travels. Hope your week goes better.


  14. I can't imagine how it all must feel. My heart goes out to you. Denial is a wonderful strategy at times and a necessary one. Sometimes we need it to make it through a troubled time until we are strong enough. This being your first year after your sons death - you just do what you need to do! You are certainly entitled! Hugs!

    Bernadette (new follower)

  15. I like the name of your blog. I can't imagine how difficult it is to lose a child and agree that life wouldn't be the same afterward. I hope maybe you were able to stay busy yesterday and weren't reminded all day of Mother's Day here.

    I'm a new follower from the Mingle Monday Blog Hop. I'm really interested to read all about your like in London. I've been a few times and think it would be amazing to live there (for a while!).

    I'd love it if you'd swing by A Helicopter Mom and follow me back! :)

    Have a great week,
    A Helicopter Mom

  16. I hope this Monday brings you good cheer, despite the difficult weekend. This is my first visit to your blog but I can already tell that you are courgeous and resilient :-)

    Following from the Monday hop. Feel free to stop by my new blog:

  17. Once a mother always a mother! Happy Mother's Day!

    Just browsing some of the blog hop blogs and I wanted to say hi! I will follow you as well. We also have a Facebook fan page at that you should check out! We always like and follow back, just leave us a note <3

    Monika @ Aias Dot Ca (

  18. Hi, I am visiting from the bloghop and I am following you.I would love for you to check out my blog and any advice for a new blogger is welcome.

  19. Aw, honey, I hope you made it through the day okay.

  20. thinking of you. thank you for linking up and pouring your heart out! *HUG*

  21. I'm sorry! I hope the day was blessed despite all the Mother's day hoopla. Some days are perfect for hiding and pretending the day isn't here. {{{hugs}}} Stopped by from PYHO!