After all this time.
It's been almost 5 years since we lost him.
After all this time, I still can't become friends with someone who has a child who is the same age as he should be.
It seems silly perhaps, and it certainly makes it difficult to make new friends in a new town.
After all this time, I still can't do it.
I'm sure you are a lovely person, but you have a child who will turn 5 this summer so we can't be friends.
After all this time you would think I could look past it, but I can't.
Dealing with the loss of a child is never easy, but it's even more difficult when you are an expat living far from home. Life will never be "normal" again and so now the challenge is to find my new normal. I am now back in the USA and the proud parent of two daughters, born using two different egg donors. "Frostina" and "Olea" are the loves of my life and I feel so grateful for the amazing women who donated their eggs and made my family possible.
When you've been wounded so deeply, things like that don't need to make sense - as long as they ease some of weight on your heart. Thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteI just met a very sweet woman whose son will be 5 in December. I immediately felt myself creating distance. It's just so hard.
ReplyDelete"Silly" is definitely NOT the word I would use to describe your feelings. I'm sure five years feels like no time at all.
ReplyDeleteAbiding and sending a hug.
ReplyDeleteYup, I feel the same way.
ReplyDeleteHere from the roundup. ((Hugs))
ReplyDeleteWithout really realizing it until recently, I think I distance myself from people with kids of the same age of what could have been. Helps to have an awareness about it. Thank you for sharing so I know I am not the only one who struggles with this sometimes. Thoughts your way!
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