Wednesday 4 December 2013

One Perfect Heartbeat

What lovely words I've just typed as the title to this post.

One perfect heartbeat.

That's what The Hubby and I saw at our ultrasound today. Well actually what we saw was a fuzzy blob with a dense center that was flickering like crazy. Since this isn't our first pregnancy, we knew instantly that our little embryo was officially viable.

What an amazing feeling.

So here we go again. Our third pregnancy. Our second pregnancy after a devastating loss. Do they call the second pregnancy after a loss a rainbow baby too? Maybe that's just for the first one.

I feel very different than I did when I was pregnant with Frostina. I just went back and looked at my blog post after this same ultrasound and I realize that I am in a very different place now.

Obviously I have Frostina to chase around and keep me too busy to obsess about every little detail. But the biggest difference is that I'm not nearly as terrified. Of course I know all to well that things can and do go wrong. Of course I know just how devastating that can be. Yet somehow, I am able to be optimistic. In spite of everything, I feel hopeful, and that's something I was unable to feel at this early stage with Frostina's pregnancy.

So I hope that's progress. And obviously I hope and pray that everything continues to go well with this pregnancy. I hope and pray that in July of 2014 we are able to bring this baby home to join our little family. I hope and pray for take-home baby number two!

I hope and pray.

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  1. "In spite of everything, I feel hopeful"
    I'm so glad for you! And a GIANT congratulations!

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  2. I love heartbeats.

    Congratulations!

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  3. Hoping and praying for both of us for our double rainbows. Congratulations!

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  4. You're surrounded by HERDS of us who hope and pray right along with you.

    I like the phrase Brianna used ... "Double Rainbows" ... rainbows ARE magical aren't they.

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  5. That is wonderful news. So chuffed for you.

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  6. This is beautiful. One perfect heartbeat of many and many and many other perfect heartbeats your baby will have in life =)

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  7. That is amazing news. Congratulations!

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  8. Great news on that perfect heartbeat! And really glad to read that the worry and anxiety are not as present with this pregnancy.

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  9. Wonderful news!
    And I'm glad that you're less anxious now, I can only imagine how hard this must be.

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  10. I'm so happy to read this, and to know your anxiety level is surpassed by your optimism--wouldn't that have seemed impossible last time around? Crazy what a difference a rainbow can make.

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  11. I'm so happy to read this, and to know your anxiety level is surpassed by your optimism--wouldn't that have seemed impossible last time around? Crazy what a difference a rainbow can make.

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  12. I popped over here from PVED to send congrats and get caught up (somehow, when I migrated from Google Reader to Feedly, I lost track of your blog).

    Here is hoping for an uneventfully smooth pregnancy.

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  13. This is what I get for not having a computer for almost a month. I just now found out you're pregnant. OMG congrats! Amazing! Yay! Mazel Tov! And so on. :-)

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  14. I just wanted to pop in and tell you how thrilled I am to read this! Wishing you well and sending a hug across the pond! Fingers crossed for you and this little one!

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