It's been so long that I don't really know where to begin. A lot has changed since I left this place. Once again, I find myself if a place where life as I know it has been turned on it's head.
When we moved back to the US and settled in South Florida we thought it was for good. We craved a stable environment for our little girls. We wanted them to have the life we did growing up; living in the same house and growing up knowing everyone in town. We were done with adventure and were craving some "normal."
Then in January the hubby was laid off. Job was dissolved, they closed his office down. Just like that with no warning. One day he had over 20 years with the same company (that had been so very good to us over the years) the next day he was unemployed. Bam!
Everything we had known was suddenly gone. A harsh reminder that life really can change in an instant.
Of course we have been through much worse. I mean, at least no one died this time. And yet it's still a loss. The loss of a career and a direction.
Losing all the plans we had made for our future.
Again
Once again we find ourselves at the whim of something out of our control.
Once again we have to pick up the pieces and begin again.
Once again we are starting over and venturing into the unknown.
Once again the future is uncertain and scary.
Once again I am hoping to find my way out of this dark place and come back into the light.
Dealing with the loss of a child is never easy, but it's even more difficult when you are an expat living far from home. Life will never be "normal" again and so now the challenge is to find my new normal. I am now back in the USA and the proud parent of two daughters, born using two different egg donors. "Frostina" and "Olea" are the loves of my life and I feel so grateful for the amazing women who donated their eggs and made my family possible.
