P.U.P.O.

I'm officially PUPO. For those of you who have not had to burden yourselves with learning all the lingo and abbreviations that go along with infertility, PUPO means pregnant until proven otherwise.

The transfer went well. It was quite a whirlwind trip and I hardly had time to think about what was going on before it was over and done with. I missed Frostina, but not on the flights. I watched other parents walking up and down the aisles with their children and was sooooo happy it wasn't me for once.

We transferred one perfect embryo and had a couple left over to freeze. I'm hoping we won't need them, but it's nice to know they are there.

Stick little embryo, stick!

Now the dreaded 2 week wait.

2nd Beta

My second beta test was today and the numbers more than doubled! So I'm still pregnant. I have one more on Monday just to be sure but it's looking positive so far.

I am starting to believe that I may really be pregnant. But I know there's still a bunch of denial going on as well.

I feel speechless and wordless as to how I'm feeling. So it's a short post for today, but a good one.

Beta = Pregnant

My first beta results are in. My results are 657 which the nurse says is excellent. As I have no idea what it's supposed to be (or not be) I am taking her word for it. I have to go in tomorrow for the second beta where they want to see that number go up.

So I'm pregnant! Wow,,,,, wow,,,, wow.!

Of course I'm still nervous and not wanting to fully believe it at this point. I know we have beta number two and then there's the first ultrasound where we look for a heartbeat. But I'm happy today. I'm going to try and take things in small steps and be happy as much as I can.

The hubby is much more scared and nervous than I am. But he was like that with our first pregnancy and that's before we knew that things could go horribly wrong at any time. So I'm expecting him to be a nervous wreck the entire time.

I'm so much more scared to share the news this time around. We told my parents of course because we are visiting them at the moment. My sister knows too because she called me yesterday to find out the results. But I kind of want to wait until beta #2 before sharing with my close friends who knew I was doing the FET.

I suppose that's one nice thing about being in the US visiting family. I'm far away from my London friends so I've got a bit more time to digest the news before sharing. I don't plan to make any kind of huge announcement right now,,, but the friends who have been there for me through the failed IVF and now this FET will be wanting to know how it went.

Wow, I'm pregnant again. I'm sure once the shock wears off I'll have lots of mixed feelings about the whole thing and lots of juicy material for blogging. But for now I'm just feeling happy, and that's a nice feeling.

*Oh, and I've updated my trying again timeline for anyone following along.

Still Positive

I took another test this morning and saw those beautiful 2 pink lines. So as of this moment I'm still pregnant.

I'm starting to get a bit more excited,,,, but in a very cautious way. I won't feel like this is real until the beta test on Wednesday. Only 2 more days!!!

In the meantime I'm doing some last minute packing and we're off to the USA today. It will be nice to see the family and enjoy some warm weather. Well maybe not beach weather, but at least it will be warmer than London.

We have decided not to say anything to the family (or anyone else) until after Wednesday. No point in getting them all excited only to have the bubble burst by a bad beta. *Try saying that 3 times fast,,,, bubble burst by a bad beta. It sounds like one of those weird google search results we all get.

So I'm hopeful that this cycle will be a success!

Mindful that things can still go wrong.... but hopeful.

I Cracked

I am in the midst of the 2 week wait after my frozen embryo transfer. I had every intention of not testing early this cycle. Last IVF cycle I waited until beta day to pee on a stick. As we all know, that one came out negative but I was proud of my willpower. But this time I just couldn't help myself. I had sticks over from last time and they were calling to me. So yesterday (which would be 8 days past a 5 day transfer) I did it.

Holy Crap-a-Moley

Wouldn't you know the darn thing turned positive??? Wow! Of course I then started feeling horribly guilty for not testing when the hubby was home. He hates when I test without him. I ponder not telling him and trying to get him to agree to test the next day and acting surprised.

But that only lasted for about 15 minutes before I realized there's no way I could keep this to myself. So I sent the photo to his phone telling him I'd been naughty. He called back instantly because apparently he couldn't see the wording clearly on his non-smart phone. We both said holy crap to each other a bunch of times (or maybe it was holy something else, I can't remember) and I cried just a little bit.

Wow! I'm in total shock.

Now I know it's early days still and a positive pee test doesn't always translate into a positive beta. So we're not telling a soul until after beta on Wednesday. I'm still pretty much in denial until I get those results as well. But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't delighted to see the positive test result!

Jet-Lag And The 2 Week Wait

I'm back from my transfer and fighting the jet-lag. It was a short visit to the US and I was just barely adjusting there and now I'm back and have to try and adjust back. Then next week on Monday I'm back to the US to see the family so I have to do it all over again. Although this time I will be going to the west coast so it's an 8 hour time difference. Not fun.

Today it's 5 days past my 5 day transfer and since I'm riddled with jet-lag I've got no idea if I'm feeling any real symptoms. I'm tired and hungry at all the wrong times which can easily be the time difference. I felt yucky after lunch today but that often happens to me when I'm adjusting to new time zones. So again, I have no idea if I feel any different.

I suppose it's silly playing this game with myself considering the last time I was pregnant I didn't feel any different until 7 weeks in. But like anyone in the 2WW I'm letting my mind play tricks on me. I suppose that just goes with the territory.

Beta is not until the 26th so I've got a ways to go. Oh, and I still don't know where I am going to be doing it yet. I don't have a doctor in California anymore and so the nurse at my US clinic is trying to find a lab where I can have it done. I just hope she can find someplace close to where we are staying.

So for now I'm just doing my injections and trying to live my life as normal as possible.